A prince without a horse…

It was almost mid of the night and I’m not sleeping yet. I’m transfering so many datas and doing many things into the computer, but I really feel so sleepy that time, that in a minute I’ll probably lay on the bed. But, my honey came up and I thought we could not have a long conversation before that day closes.

He really thought that I”m a computer genius but actually not, I just know a little That I know its right but probably for other might be wrong, or maybe other may notice I’m doing wrong. Well I’m so busy now to think of things that could harm my mind. I’m alloting my thinking energy for the upcoming reports and submission of requirements in my masteral class. Oh…. Im so stressed. But maybe it still not enough to complain, and no one I can complain for but myself if I have not accomplish this. I just keep in mind that what happening is such a gift for me, not anyone have given the chance to accelerate their knowledge, Now that its given to me I should treasure it and use it for something better.

But even though I so busy, I wont take away those manners of listening to music I really feel connected especially if its talking to what I feel with Jonas. When I used to hear it, I make sure that i will have the copy of that song, so I can listen to it anytime and i may have Jonas to also hear my collection when there is time.

Jonas also love to hear slow music. He also play piano but not that always, but his family especially his father always like to watch concerts, that when before his father died in a deadly disease, they went him to classical concerts to make him feel he still living natural.

It was cool that Jonas came up to an idea of attending dance course, and it’s better that he was really concern with his health. He wanted to losse weight as possible. I really wanted that we could spend more years together. Though there are possibilities that his father’s disease would transfer by heritage, I hope it wont pass through Jonas or through the kids if we’ll have. If there’s a miracle why not..?

it was really inspiring, I am really wondering about how he spend his years when he was like my age, but I don’t know where to start asking about it. I just wanted to let him initiate opening things like these. He was so proud of when he was involved in military training, and I just can’t believe now that I knew that he became a nurse and have work in hospital also. Oh, I should keep this, I’m on my way on admiring him so much, because not anyone can make many roles in life.

After these, we start talking about religion, we both not totaly religious person but here in Philippines of course, Religion are different thing. It really difficult to how is the culture and restrictions would be. Until we came to topic on the rules of getting married in religions.

I don’t know what to feel that time, it was not really clear what he’s talking about marriage in relation with me. Maybe were talking about that without implication to us for now., becoz, becoz we still be counting more years maybe before that can be decided, or if my Prince will come and make the big question with or without a horse…

But if I can guess where it will be going, its going deep like I can’t feel for anyone but for him. I’m shouldering those many reasons why I need to hope for something like this. , and I hope those reasons may grow until jonas and me “reach the most stable ground a couple can have as being a strong foundation of love in life and can conquer anything ” (jonas words.) And for now I just can say that I’m really happy to have each other and that is worth everything.

Many forms of sweetness

You could almost define how big the difference of a filipino lover to other. Many filipina are still choosing the same race to be their partner because of many reasons and one of the reason maybe is that the level of sweetness to a relationship one part can give. Like last day, there is a guy went to my mom and ask her to sew a nurse dress to a teady bear he bought for her nurse girlfriend that will having birthday soon. And my mother did a cute medical dress to that stuff toy. It was really nice cute idea.

Hangin’ around in SM fairview…

Winny the POOH

The Teady Bears

Isn’t we’re inside?

Yeah, just buy the ice creams…

its Boss Gerry’s Birthday

It’s Boss Gerry’s Birthday – the Owner of the M/SET company that I am employed with.

My heart is full…

I should thank God every hour and every second,all the times he know what you needed even you don’t ask of it, He will make you happy.

First week of second semester class were done. I have only fewer students compared the last sem. They are more behave, and I think they are more enthusiast and a little motivated to listen with my discussions.

Actually I feel so stress now, I am worried with my graduate class because I have collected many assignments, requirements and reports. I wish I can start and be finish it on time. I hope I can deliver my report good, I hope I may pass this subjects.

I’m having hard times because its not easy to manage time with work and with study, but I really to like to add additional knowledge, I’m not contented that I’m teaching now in college, Yes, I can be proud of, but now I feel it’s not enough, what I know is not enough, I would like to become inform with the field I am weak – like the course I take in Masteral. I wish, I wish, I wish I can finish it.

Well, I am so lucky because after all I feel so comfortable with my work, I have nothign to complain for. All the heads are very kind to me, my students all respect me, my room – I’m contented because it is ventilated (heheeh).

And specially, I remember Jonas all the time and it makes me, it makes me… I can’t express the feeling but its like i feel overjoyed. I don’t know, maybe I’m just overwhelmed with the way he is loving me, actually I never felt this before. He think that he doing not enough, but all the way I feel his total care for me, nothing compares to his care for me.

So my heart is full – it can have a big smile, I should be strong even there are lots of hard times.

So i really look stress but it’s nice to stay alone in the computer room, peaceful and solitude.

“While there is life, there is hope”

I was lack of sleep, I feel tired, I feel I’m not prepared to go to school today. I had only finish 1 reaction for one clippings, that suppose to be three. My eyes feel tired, I am only done with the introduction of the my research on other subject.

It was the first formal lectures for the subject public finance, but it became very emotional because the class are discussing issues on poverty and the role of the government in alleviating the lives of its constituent. Though at first, our professor were asking of who’s to blame in the incident of a grade five student in davao who commit suicide because of she experiencing poverty.

For me, it will take a long time to discuss all its roots or causes, because there are many implications that contribute to the increasing incidents of poverty. Then one of my classmate point out the fault of the church in with disseminating values to the people. That its a sin to kill their selves, that it is not the God’s will. And also he pointed out the fault of the parents.

I was quiet laughing because our professor is quite not satisfied with my classmate’s answer. She was pointing out the role of the Local Government to reach out to the remote areas, and to utilize the areas to become productive so that poor people can have their livelihood. We can have so many resources, but the problem was that the Government don’t move at their office, they are just complacent having positions. And the big problem in allocating budget is that it became politically distributed. She mean, those who supported the candidate, they are only the one who can receive benefits or can be reach by the programs of the Government. As she says this subject,can make you drained and become very sad knowing the reality.

But it was the same thing, if people at the province, at the remote areas died in total hunger, or total poverty, here in the city (manila), it the same thing, If you will not die with poverty, you will die in accidents. Manila as we can say “you are not safe” – you feel you are always in danger because of the undisciplined motorist, drunk drivers, drug addicted drivers who totaly do not obey the traffic rules.

Our professor also added that parents at start, must teach they young about the value of life. So they will not come up deciding that they should end their life just because of the poverty they are experiencing.

And the last question was: Is there any hope for our country to lift from it drastic situation?

well… “while there is life, there is hope”

going to Quezon City’s boundary (right side)

The roads looks dull all around the main highway, because of the road widening where MMDA implementing. Heavy traffic is the big problem now in the Metro Manila so authority kept thinking of programs that will lessen it. They raises many causes of it, they are blaming the street vendors, as always illegal vendors, selling their goods at the sidewalks. They blame the jeepney and bus drivers because they are always over taking different lanes, so they ordered that PUJ’s and PUB’s should keep taking at the first 2 lanes at right. Next was the overcrowding of the colorum buses or the buses with the no franchise lines – though I obsereved that during rush hours, people are crowded inside the bus, even the strong bodied man cannot give sit to those elderly womens. Now they are widening the roads up to 8 lanes so they say that it can accomodate the numbers of cars. Why not regulate their number? This is a big kind of projects and also a big budget are expected – but I notice that when it comes to these kind of programs – implementation are always on the date. Did government really prioritize the needs of the people. Or maybe line up strategies – and choose a strategies where money can be utilized properly.

The Commonwealth Avenue.
Quezon City was the largest city in the whole metropolitan, but doesnt’ mean that large area – will be really hard to reach of the programs? of the monitoring?
Like in our area in Fairview, I see less security – less police visibility –
so there are lot of careless drivers…

Its the boundary of fairview and commonwealth, as you can see there are still trees growing out, and less residence for the subdivisions.

Away from the malls, —- there are few people here, i don’t know if business people can still have profit in this area.

its nice to walk here, but you still feel in danger because of the reckless motorist…

The sangkalan restaurant — there are still celebrities coming out and eating here…

The way going to the house of my two friends where they are living. So when I’m in highschool days, i keep coming back here to help for the group assignments, or just make a visit to them.

The Mcdonalds, Fairview —- how cute the store looks.

The Fairview Avenue – they say it’s like a mini “Recto” — you can see lots of internet cafe, photocopy stores and many more…

There were no heavy traffic around 2-4 pm

Look at this side?

This is the center island?

And look at this side also?

Now here’s the question:

What’s the difference?

Well the poor street was my homeplace, a crowded place where many people came from provinces choose to live at manila and find cheap accomodations.

What would you feel when you are 22…

What would you feel when you are twenty-two and you are hearing many news about your friends that they are settling down?

Its kinda weird feeling, because I want to feel that I’m still young. Last day a new number appeard on my cellphone. It was my high school bestfriend who would like to invite me to become a sponsor to a baptism of her second baby. As far as I know we are at the same age now of 22. And we have not seen each other about 5 years, I think. I am excited to see them and of course she would also invite other classmates from high school which I’m not comfortable to be with. But now I feel it will be strange, Im losing my interest to come. Yes maybe, I would like to see her babies, to talk about her, for sure she will discuss how happy she is being married and having babies. But one thing I’m always feared about is when they asked me to tell something about or something that happens to me. Would they become interested about me hearing Im just teaching, taking higher studies, living a plain life?. It would not make them listen knowing this. Things will only relate to them is topic of being married and having kids. I mean maybe we can never relate from each other. So my only defense is not to attend the event, so I cannot feel any insecurities. I know I’m not thinking right about this point. So if you are 22 and single can you still socialize with different status in life, or when they ask you “When is your plan to get married?” and you would probably say “Oh, I’m still young, I dont think of that for now” – and they will think of you as “KJ – Kill joy” or “Corny”. So it is the end, what will you talk about, they are not interested for the stories of single people.

BPAG Section 3 Batch 2002-2006 in Polytechnic University of the Philippines, Sta. Mesa Manila

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galing ng photographer nyo ah (kaso ako yun!)

Parang mga bata…

Ronil’s Birthday – infairness nagdala sya ingredients sa sphagettie, that time me and merrhic were working on jollibee, nasa duty ako nung inihatid nya yung lulutuin na sphagetti. So very excited eh, we are going to ecopark, nagprepare lang ako fruit salad.

Ayan – bida si buntis that is Rio on the center, I think that is 2 months ago before march when we are on last year studying at PUP. Background namin yung Law-School, so grabe kakasuka magbasa ng mga case, I mean kakasuka rin kung magtanong yung prof. its like he can’t accept any kind of answer. Kakaloka…

Ayan, nabalik sa mother school, medyo maganda na garden ng PUP pero yung mga rooms walang pinagbago, maliit at paisa isa lang ang electic-fan.

Wow, nice background, sino ba naman di mapapabalik sa ganda at tahimik ng PUP lagoon. Dami lovers dyan sa palibot kapag nagtakipsilim na.

Mga walang magawa sa buhay, nagtambay na lang sa Eastwood

Merrhic’s Wedding – its nice to have a reunion again – nagsama – sama ang mga kalog.

Ganda ni Rio

Mga bagong gising

Sige pose lang…

Shane and Rami’s Wedding Reception
eh daming tao kaya dun lang kami sa sulok

Ang magsyota…

Ganda ni Shane…

Catch at Alimall, Cubao – sweet come back after 3 years I think…

Haloween treats…

It’s the funny looks the children made on the eve of the Haloween, they are very noisy running of the street and houses to show their cute faces.

They lighted up candles outside their houses to offer for their dead love ones.

My youngest brother, feeling proud with his scary make up.

I dont know what happen, when it comes to this child my camera isn’t working for 5 times to catch a photo for him. Maybe his not real, maybe his a real ghost…

My brother is playing at the candle…

My mom is preparin the only one candle she brought

a sweet native grain cooked in banana leaves called “suman” in Tagalog. It is a combination of crop called “kamoteng kahoy” and “niyog” from coconut fruit.

another sweet native grain delicacies also called “suman”, it uses sticky rice grain, cooked by my mom to offer for our grandmother, which she loves to cooked when she was still alive.